I have been using my regular blog to post my feelings and thoughts as I, a first time LDS missionary mom, go through this experience. My feelings have been an emotional roller coaster ride the past few weeks. At first, I thought maybe I was the only person feeling this way. I would search the internet and see if there were other mothers who felt this way, because I had never been told about this best kept secret; the secret of the pain and heartache. I knew it would be hard the day you dropped your missionary off at the MTC but I never knew it would be so emotional for the mother leading up to the time they left and after (which by the way, my son does not leave for another week)!
So my regular blog, displaced desert rat, has been the place I would run to write my emotions and feelings down as tears would pour down on my face. Rather than posting my feelings upon that page, since I would like to keep that more family oriented, I figured I would dedicate one to just that, my experiences as a missionary mom. This would be more for me; more a journal about my feelings, my emotions and how I cope with them. I have searched the internet for any guidance as to how other moms tend to cope with their experiences and how they hold up the weeks leading up and following the time their missionary leaves, there is not much out there. So whether this benefits just myself or the next time I send a missionary out or helps someone else, I am not keeping the secret to myself. I will let you in and let you know how hard it is...emotionally that is. I will let you know the joys and the heartache that I feel by sending my son on a two year mission - which, by the way, I am excited for him and for the people he will serve and bless. But right now, my heart aches for this new chapter in my life; the chapter of going from my child at home to an independent adult.
So, the two year (emotional) journey is about to begin.......
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