Enjoy the moment

Enjoy the time I have left with my missionary while he is still here...which is another four and a half days, but who's counting.    Honestly,  I want to squeeze in as much memories of him and our family as I can before he is gone for two years.   Some days I wonder how I will survive two years without him;  without hearing his voice, seeing his smile, hearing a "Hi Mom!"
Honestly I try not to look ahead,  I try not to think of next week.  I try not to think of a month from now.  That time seems like such a long ways away.   Looking back to last week, the time had flown by.   Just last week we were in Disneyland.   Two weeks ago from today we were on a plane heading for California.   Last week was Christmas.   Last week we went with Garrett through the temple.   All those things seem like they were just yesterday,  yet somehow they,  too, feel like they are far away.   But laying here thinking that this time next week Garrett will be in the MTC.  Thinking ahead my heart gets heavy,  real heavy.  So much so that all I can do is very to release the pain.
So I try not to look ahead at the moment because it hurts.   It feels like an eternity and yet at times it doesn't. I know this isn't going to be easy, emotionally that is, at first.  I think I will be taking baby steps to get me from day to day, week to week, then month to month.